When You Just Need To Figure Things Out

I click over and I stall. How does this even work again? What is my password? What is the process, again? I blink a few times, take a deep breath and dig into the depths to figure it all out. You see, it has been a while. A long while, in fact, since I’ve occupied this tiny space on the world wide web that I call a blog. Why? I’ve stalled because I’m just trying to figure things out. These things I’m trying to figure out, well, they are bigger than how and where to click and type. They are … Continue Reading »»

I Put Pretty Pillows On My Bed

My smart phone tweeted a wake up tune. The house was quiet but my mind loudly swirled with all that the upcoming day would serve me. An ache droned in the pit of my stomach. Nerves and anxiety took their place. The warm soft covers soothed just a bit. But, at 6am in the morning I have duties, I have responsibilities that propel me out of the covers and toward the things that moms do to get everyone out the door in one piece. I combed his wet little head and listened to silly jokes that 5 year olds find … Continue Reading »»

The Grand Goal of Simply Beholding

We sat perched between the weather radar on the screen and the window sill. Peering through up to the sky, our eyes begged for snow. Our hearts leaped for joy at the littlest flurry, even though it was just that…a tiny flurry. The five year old in me right alongside of my very own 5 year old yearned for the joy of seeing snow, the joy of the anticipation, the joy of snuggling in and beholding the beauty. We waited. We did all kinds of snow rituals. Rituals just for the sake of having fun together more than for superstition. … Continue Reading »»