Thank you everyone for joining in on the conversation a couple of weeks ago, Living In The Raw. For those of you who commented, you inspire me. It takes courage to even talk about those raw parts of our heart. For me, that might have been the most vulnerable I’ve been on the world wide web, which says alot as I try my best to be open and honest at all times.
One sweet reader added to the convo with this really great question which I thought would be a good follow up discussion for us all.
Here is what Chelsea added to the conversation…
I know how you feel, I often feel RAW…But I also struggle with my heart feeling NUMB. Anyone else struggle with that? Any help? Thanks!
I’ve been thinking about this so much. I even sat down several times to address this idea of feeling numb. One day I just couldn’t get my ideas to gel. The other day, I was dealing with major computer drama that prevented me from operating on my blog! But, as I let this idea simmer, I realize that I’ve felt this quite often yet I’ve called it by a different name: blah.
So, I’m wondering if we could ask ourselves a question when we are stuck in the numb feelings in our heart and mind:
Is there some raw patch in our spirit or a tenderness in our heart that we just can’t talk ourselves into addressing? Are we allowing that numb feeling–blah feeling–to cover up the spots in our hearts that we would rather not expose and deal with?
Is it easier to just feel numb ?
Just a thought…
I think both of these feelings, the raw and the numb go hand and hand sometimes as life gets in the way not allowing us to sit still and look deep.
I feel like I need to stop right here and just circle back to a Bible verse that has meant so very much to me over the years. Take a look at it and visualize your mighty King waiting with an ever gracious, ever careful, ever gentle hand to lead you down the road to explore the raw and the numb…healing awaits.
Let us then fearlessly and confidently and boldly draw near to the throne of grace (the throne of God’s unmerited favor to us sinners), that we may receive mercy [for our failures] and find grace to help in good time for every need [appropriate help and well-timed help, coming just when we need it]. Hebrews 4:16 Amplified Bible
Let’s keep the conversation going. Leave a comment!
**One more thing…If you want to read more about my musings on Blah Faith click HERE.
Oh my gravy! Yes, there are parts that are easier to keep numb. At least for me. I’ve been having a bit of drama this morning and in talking to someone about it its exactly what I thought and have said a few times. “I keep that part numb.” Or blocked out. And see its like I have so many thoughts on the matter that they can’t gel as you said.
I think we might start going numb or I start going numb when the rawness is layered and sticky. It becomes so tangled that you have to set some aside.
Yes…like it takes too much to look so deep that it is easier to just stay numb. I’m learning though, to peel it back. But it takes me allowing Jesus to lead me out of the numb and the raw!
Praying for you, Sarah!
THANK. YOU.
It means so much to me that you addressed this issue! I did send you a message on here with some more personal stuff I had to say about the topic, just FYI. ;)
“Blah” is a really good word for exactly how I feel! You hit the nail on the head once again, Sarah! :) Thanks!
Countless times have I said that I felt blah and felt helpless about how to change it. This makes so much sense and gives me hope that the blahs and feeling numb can be worked through and healing can begin!
Denise, I’m so glad you found encouragement. Yes, the blah and the numb can be worked through…if we are willing to show up in relationship with Jesus…even when we just don’t feel like it! Hugs!