Bad days are just part of life. I usually take them in stride and move on. However, yesterday was ONE BAD DAY that locked me in a pressure cooker about to explode at any minute.
After attempting to work out to alleviate the stress, (a KILLER Jillian Michaels workout, btw) I decided a glass of wine would do the trick. One glass turned into two, which turned into half a bottle by the time I wobbled to bed. You better believe that the cotton mouth and the headache this morning served as a strong reminder that pouring the wine to wring out stress only adds to a guilty conscience the next morning.
So today I am asking these questions of myself…looking deep down to the dark spaces of my heart. I haven’t found the answer just yet, but maybe you can relate and are asking these of yourself as well.
**Why did I turn to something other than Jesus to release the pressure from a stinky, stressful day?
**What is it about God’s perfect, comforting, life-giving character in which I DO NOT understand and instead turn to things like a bottle of wine?
I will leave you with this verse that I chose to soak in until I figure out those answers.
As a deer pants for flowing streams,
so pants my soul for you, O God.
My soul thirsts for God,
for the living God.
When shall I come and appear before God? {Psalm 42:1-2 ESV}
Are you in the same predicament as I am? Let’s encourage each other…leave a comment.
I experienced something similar just yesterday. I was feeling particularly bad over a relationship that didn’t happen and I tried turning to my writing, thinking, “I need to focus on something else.” My writing didn’t seem to help me feel better, so I then turned to sliding into a depression.
After trying several other things to ease the pain (some of which distracted me for a bit), I finally turned to God, the One I should have turned to immediately. I cried out to Him and just knowing that He was there and that He loved me made things so much easier. The pain is not completely gone, but I know that over time, God will heal me completely.
MAY I SUGGEST WATCHING AN AMAZING TEACHING I WATCHED YESTERDAY BASED ON COLOSSIANS 3:1-2 ?
I HAD THE SAME KIND OF DAY AND I REFUSED TO LET THE ENEMY CONTROL MY THOUGHTS, MY SPIRIT OR MY FLESH. I ASKED FRIENDS ON FACEBOOK TO PRAY FOR ME, I PRAYED AND MOVED ONTO PRAYING, STUDYING AND WORSHIPING. NOT SOMETHING I CHOSE TO DO WITHOUT A STRUGGLE I MAY ADD. BLESSINGS.
i fall into this habit all of the time. God is sometimes my last resort when He should be my first. why is that such a hard concept?? anyways, it was very nice to meet you today! i’m excited to have a new blog to read. :-)