Every now and then I post a peek into my latest journal entry in hopes that my thoughts, struggles and raw questions will spark someone else to get real with Jesus in their own way.
Father God, I feel flat. My passion for You is flat and one dimensional. Don’t You get tired of me coming to You with this? I know your answer is No, but I’m tired of it myself. Lord, I remember a day seven years ago where I asked that You would give me a heart for You alone. Oh how You filled my heart and gave me Holy focus and worship.
I need that again. In my head I know that I need more passion for Your glory. I want to see You more and more and more. But I get in the way of it. I make myself angry that I alone stand in the way of living to the fullest in YOU.
I beg of YOU…let your Spirit consume me. Let every cell in my body glow with a burning love.
Dredge out the junk. How I don’t like to ask You to do that…but I know the muck in my heart keeps me stuck in this flat passion.
Do Your thing, Lord. I’m ready.
Amen.
Sarah-I loved this post! I know you may feel raw and exposed by publishing your journal posts, but what great insight it gives! I feel you girl. Sometimes I feel like I’m running the race…and running…and running…and there’s no finish line. So I just keep running. And it does begin to wear you down- emotionally, physically, mentally. Thank you for posting this today. I too need to pray that He removes the junk in my life so that I can focus more on Him.
Ame sister!:)
oups Amen the “n” got eaten lol!:)